Thursday, October 30, 2008

happy please come and take sad away.

why, why everyone around me seem to be so unhappy?
why am i seeing everyone putting a fake smile to hide their heart away.. ?
will this come to the end with everyone getting what they want ?


is it really true that a happy people cant get to know the reason why a people is feeling sad/emo/depressed?

i wished upon the sky that happy will be coming to take the sad away.




i met my boyfriend for 45mins, and maybe i can only get to see him after two weeks or a mth later.
i felt so emo today :(
idk why, and sorry for giving you attitude.
but at least he do apologised to me.

thanks boyfriend for everything.
maybe you have nothing, but you have give me everything i want.

love can be so simple, if they know what they want.

boyfriend caused someone to quarral with his gf, but not his fault, i felt it amused somehow.
just be yourself.

had funny conver with drew.
"eat full full and i going to sell you away"
"oh, sell me to japan le"
"you think you still can choose ah"
boyfriend asked me why i havent being sell away.

i laughed like bodoh when bf msg & asked whether i bright or not?
mei and drew was sitting infornt.

andrew played with a car, for driving 20 or 30km/hr
damn funny lo, blame that car.
the driver drive as if he own the road.

bye (:

iloveyou.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

photos with boyfriend at kbox (:

photos with beloved boyfriend. :D

eating eating :D
funny faces he have :D
chiling at the void deck (:

see how darling love the driver seat! LOL.

cool cool bf
mango freeze (:
drinks (:
eugene!
andrew!
boyfriend !
k.

he smile, heeeee (: finally! LOL


ahhaa!
the best brother :D


kiss bf.

:P
:B darling super cute la! LOL
ilu.





yes yes, i know im fat.

in the cafe. ahaha! darling's face!
market couple (:
LOL
at cosy bay(:
in the car :D
well that all.
i feel so bless now with him loving me (: and he loving me deeper and deeper.
ah so bless.
nadiah found her thumdrive :D
yay-ness, thank me for praying!
hahaaa!
glad for her(:
saw asiyah and jasmine today, long since i saw them.
miss them la.
thanks andrew for sending me and sis to school (:
love his car luh.
creative writing still as boring as usual, just need to write alot la. i sorry king that i topple over your drink, but your just too over le la :(
i very pissed off actually, i really dont mean it to topple over. i sorry i careless i cant help it. but did your think that i want to be so careless? i really so guilty about it le, still blame me till like this. maybe your just kidding and disturb only, but sometimes it really too over okay. i been tolerate about them, but nevermind. my dear sister just shout at them, and she went aside to cry. not because of me being disturb ah! is because she mood swimg and she felt that everything is just too noisy for her to take it. kangling jitao stunned and went speechless, suddenly everyone went silent. run to find sister, and asked shuhui along, saw jasmine and she tried to cheer her up! so cute la! and huang yiting smile like finally. shuhui and i managed to cheer her up and we went back.
i want my sister to be happy kid, i really hate hate hate to see her crying and emo shit. you know, very heartpain to see her like this :(
please, cheer up. i love you and you are my dear dear dear sister.
mummy finally take medicine, i glad for her. i hope her blood pressure will went back normal.
i love you mummy.
i gonna stop here.
boyfriend went out sea for two days, still can contact sometime:D
aha.
boyfriend, i love you.
trust me i wont leave you, treat me good and i will know how to treasure and apperciate it.
i've been treasure every seconds with you(:

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Kbox with boyfriend and one night in one city (:

kbox with boyfriend



261008 - kbox with my boyfriend, andrew, eugene and mei.

wake up at 7.30am and spam called andrew! LOL. he fall asleep and he said he will fetch boyfriend home. inthend he fall asleep.
somemore if darling go home himself, i only can meet him in afternoon. then me and boyfriend spam call like mad -.-
inthend, no one pick up and boyfriend damn angry sia :/ and i just go prepare and went down meet him.
Wanted to meet him at city hall and go down bukit batok de, but i havent prepared finish, so just meet him at bukit batok.

boyfriend msg me asked to wear t-shirt, as he like girlfriend to wear t-shirt.
i was like dont want sia, inthend he very moody somemore andrew still sleeping.
as a good girlfriend, i go find tshirt to wear (: (:
make him happy ma.
but i wear mechiam going market.

go boon keng take 66. damn retard, stupid, fool. i should go little indian or KK hospital take bus lor. take extra 8 more stations -.-

super long la, luckily the driver drive very fast :D
boyfriend called me and asked me to press the bell immediately when i saw the school.
i damn retarded lor, i saw the school i still at there wait and wait, until i realised i should press the bell, i oversit lor.
damn sian le, somemore next stop super far, boyfriend kept scolding me -.-
walk back, and i thought i will just straight away go up his house, inthend he infornt of me!
:D :D :D

went up his house, and sleep! :D
both of us were very tired, around 12pm+
his 2nd brother suddenly came in, scared me la.
i open my eye, and he look at me. quickly pretend to sleep :X
then boyfriend jitao jump up lor, then after few minutes we quickly went out.
luckily his 2nd brother didnt scolded us =X heard boyfriend said that he very fierce and dont like darling bring gf to his house lo. everyone in the house scared him.

sat at there and watch chnl 55 with darling, and we went nearby block to eat.
darling saw his friends at downstair and we qucikly went other way, because he asked darling to help carried thing to temple but he said not free :/

called eugene to came down to meet us, and before that we went to eat first.
had chicken rice, and saw his father's friend. he treat us drink.
thank le(:
continue calling andrew but no ans, boyfriend kept scold and scold.
so i was like, if really so long never pick up you dont worried ah?
boyfriend suddenly ya hor will he have any accident when he actually on the way to pick him up.
so he quickly went to his downstair to see his car, and luckily his car still at there (:

after eating, went to find eugene.
pass by fitness corner, and darling do pull up to let me see!
LOL.

after that, we went to void deck to chat, and finally andrew wake up le!
he kept apologise to boyfriend, five msg somemore Oo
went to his downstair and wait for him.
darling lied me something, but super funny la!
*raised up his hand* "teacher permision to go toliet."

andrew came down, like finally!
they kept talking crap of engine starting on the own.
super funny please.

make our way to jurong entertainment centre, and CLOSED-.-
i mean almost everything closed.

andrew very cool, went up escalator and said "very nice" after seeing the "closed" on the kbox door. then he straight away went down.

inthend, we went to eat first at idk what place.
andrew kept forcing boyfriend to finish everything, he super fierce lor :X
and i ate alot of nuggets and onion ring.

sometime see boyfriend and andrew will talk until like will qurral like that.
but ending up, they at there laughing -.-

darling look through all the photos in my camera, then he saw tinghui's photo!
he gave it to andrew and eugene to see!
LOL!

after eating, make our way to clementi central, dont know why andrew suddenly emo, and darling went to choose the nicest photo of huang yiting to let him see, so he can cheer up!
LOL. super cute la!

reached, and finally we got to Kbox le.
okay, i super surprise and shock that boyfriend actually can sing le! in fact his singing not bad le!
totally surprise, i mean like from his look cant see that he can actually sing =x
andrew more power la! his singing really good can, somemore when he sing there is feeling inside, you can somehow touched by his singing.
eugene also can sing, when he claim he cant sing at all lor.
every song they sing, can really reached the high point!

got two songs they repeat thrice (: bei ban and idk what.
super nice (: seriously.

me and boyfriend used andrew's phone to spam huang yiting to come down for Kbox.
then i use my phone, and finally she agreed to come (:(:(:(:

whatever song i said, andrew sure know how to sing de :D
no matter eng or chinese song.
boyfriend and andrew was two or one sentence each, and they can really coordinate each other well.
througout the whole k session, i was laughing and laughing!
boyfriend super sweet, i said ah i love this song, he quickly grab the mic and sing to me :D
then i told andrew hey hey, yiting love this song le! he also excited :X
was singing, with you by chris brown, and i said mei love black man and this song!
LOLLLL. their reaction super funny :X

eugene left at 6pm, OOHH :X:X:X:X:X:X:X
ahhh. he left and she came.
andrew went to bring mei up.

took alot of photos, videoing and record them :D

they re-sing some of the songs to let my sister listen, but her face super sian sia :/
c'mon cheer up, even though we at clementi. lol
we kept running for toliet sia.
boyfriend and andrew were drinking tiger beer.
i want one slip of it, but boyfriend dont even allowed me drink and he so fierce ah :X
asked boyfriend not to drink so much, at least he listen to me (:

we extend one more hour, and i sat until my butt super sourish-.-

boyfriend help me massage my shoulder and he mechiam helping baby to massage.
i was like, you help baby to massage ah, so gentle -.-
he stared at me and said walao, i scared you pain, dont want to use strength.
then he fine, and use strength.
LOL he super cute!
help him massage back :D
inthend, he never massage me much.

had really a alot of fun, half of the time darling didnt want to sing it seriously unless i asked him to do so. andrew as usual sing with all the feeling, and he very focus lor!
his house got k system, next time go his house sing la :/

boyfriend forced me to sing, but i dont want.
super stress la, my singing suck like hell :(
he dont want me to waste money to just listen to them singing, but it okay la.

8pm we left the place.
i miss their singing luh.

slack at the car park for awhile, and kelvin msg mei to meet up for returning the money, as mei lend him money the day before.
was counting how many mickey mouse andrew had in his car. he is fan of mickey sia!
make our way down to jurong point, and searching for food.
before that met kelvin first, and i think i never see him for 8mths, and changed alot sia!

nevermind, mei as usual very picky for food, and everyone had to listen to her to change places.
we change three times sia.
banquet didnt white chicken she want to eat, and i already decided on what to eat, so nevermind, we went to kopitam outside the jurong point.
walk around and i decided on what to eat, then huang yiting dont want-.-
super funny la, me walk infornt of me, passing by the stalls.
the chief saw us and shout, "omg, twins le! see see!"
i kept laughing and laughing.

anyway, we went in the restuarant, somehow like hongkong cafe.
like damn weird please! me and boyfriend mechiam like going to market.
we act like suan gu inside.
boyfriend super funny laaa! i swear i laughed until my stomach pain.
he take the pepper and salt and said, wowwww, what this i never see before sia!
then we were saying it a hongkong cafe, when i flip over the menu and the saw it was the photos of singapore. i said no lor, is singapore cafe.
he kept laughing and laughing!
LOL.
super retarded, and we did alot of stun inside.

the waitress kept smiling at us, lol.
andrew very good to boyfriend, as dar hate to bite bones, so andrew helped him to take out all the bones.
boyfriend helped me finish my porridge.
dar had the all the bones in his plates, and said to the waitress, "sorry ah, make the mess of it"
LOL, she was like haha it ok it okay, nevermind.
huang yiting said she sure swear and curse in her heart.
LOL okay what, i dont even think very messy -.-

anyway, the waitress at there super friendly (: been long since i met friendly people :D

went outside, and watched them smoking.
a slope at there and i so tempted to slide down :D
i think i already got used to the smoke and i just hack care and sat beside darling when he smoking.
inthend, he had to blow the smoke away from me every puff he take.
LOL

okokay then then, funny part again.
when we going to walk in the mall, I SAW A GUY WEARING THE 2E2 CLASS TEESHIRT.
the red colour 2e2 top in 2005.
i was like "OMG MY 2E2 CLASS TEE SIA!"
the guy turned and stared at me, i dont know who that guy sia.
but super funny, huang yiting laughed like mad.
somemore, i think of wearing my 2e2 class tee that day sia, if really does so, sure damn funny la!
was thinking hard that is there any of my 2e2 classmates stay around there. should be no la, anyway i dont even know who that guy.

boyfriend asked me keep quiet la, i damn noisy and i think he not happy.
LOL.

okay, went toliet and we girls came out first.
skip skip, some funny thing happen but lazy elaborate.
huang yiting embarrased herself!
LOLL

thinking of catching a movie but no time, want majong also no time.
andrew was abit regret for waking up so late, or else we can get alot of things done.
majong, movie and have time to make his car.

wanted to go places like those ancient thingy, but too dark mei dont want go.
so we went off, thought that andrew will fetch us to batok but he never.
the way he drive, we thought he sending us back home.

boyfriend told me something when he saw something, but uh well.
i myself also will, so cant said much.

anyway, surprisly andrew fetch us to somewhere, cosy bay, damn pretty and romantic :D :D
i mechiam small kid running around.
took photos and stuff.

walk around and play around.
asked boyfriend go playground and played with me, he still okay sia!
LOL
i kept laughed out loud, and boyfriend got angry that i so noisy.
:/

went to 7-11 at kallang lesuire, and the guys super funny when they play with the soft toys!
i kept laughing like bodoh.
retarded la!
andrew got excited when he saw mickey, but didnt bought inthend.

got a couple asked boyfriend how to get out of here, inthend boyfriend asked them to cab.
huang yiting said should told them "how you come here, then how you go out lor"
lol-.-

go back and went home at 11pm+
oh did i said, before that he was speeding car, it been long since after aden's car.
did alot of stun, and he open the window and the thingy on top, b.ut just a small part la
kept talking to darling, let enjoy cloud, sky and star :D
aha.

on the way back, and i just lie down on darling leg.
i love the way he look at me, so bless (:

hug and kiss goodbye with boyfriend (:

mum got angry when i reached home.

boyfriend msg me that andrew going to bring him to race car at orchard.
got a feeling that something bad will happen, and asked to them to becareful and i was so worried.

inthend, sian kanna police caught for speeding car :(
super shit la the feeling.
maybe will go to court, take away liscence or cant drive anymore.
andrew damn emo la, i keep asking boyfriend to cheer him up.
me and boyfriend was praying hard nothing will happen. just a warning please.

boyfriend and drew went west coast to fishing.
lol -.-

acc him msg until he reached home and i slept at 5.30am.
he called me and told me weird weird stuff lo, i thought i dreaming -.-

and sian, boyfriend caught me saying vulgar.
i said, "sibei"
then he was like okay one time liao, you better becareful.
ah, i must becareful next time le.
nononononoo vulgar from me!

suppose to meet boyfriend in the morning, but both of us were waiting for each other msg.
inthend i msg him at 2.30pm, and too late to meet.
sian want to play majong together lor!

was thinking whether should go for animation nation or not.
damn sian la, too lazy to go out.
inthend, just go la.

dad found out there money missing in brother wallet.
and he know one of them take it.
question us, and huang yiting dont want to own up.
daddy suspect me i guess, because i kept quiet.
dont care la, as long as my concious(?) is clear.
inthend, he confiscate our atm card again.
shit, my wallet no money sia!
ah hack care la, take it as saving money and im getting my paid soon!

now mei cannot put back the money le, or else they sure suspect.
see, when you lie, you need lie and lie to cover up.
damn sian la :(
i lie until very guilty.

im sorry ,really sorry mummy for lying and lying.
i dont meant it, not i actually mean to lie. but i dont wish to lie to you at all.
i feel so bad for lying, but when i dont lie, i just cant do thing that i want.
speaking the truth up will got scolding only, i just dont like it.
i meet boyfriend, i had to think of some many things to lie her.
you know the feeling damn shit, im so bad.
i feel like slapping myself for lying so much.
i told yiting ytdy, "huh, need to lie again ah. can i just slap myself? i feel so bad"
then i slap my mouth.
i lie until i damn sian la. i really hope one day i can just said the truth to mum of what i had done and go.
so at least i told her i go K ytdy, but the places and people i go with i lie her.
im sorry, really really sorry :(
the lie i told her was uncountable, sorry mum.

somemore, i dont feel like going out, because i want to accompany mummy.
mummy's health was turning bad and i feel very heart pain :(
i hope she will go for medicine.
mummy sorry for not staying at home :(
i just want to go out, and experience something new.
because i dont feel like giving a miss to the animation nation, one night in one city.

anyway, raining was so big, but we just go out.
i really feel very very very bad for going out.
i know it just going out only, but to parents, they really got upset about it.

uh well, anyway meet yiling at novena mrt and went to newton.
meet minghan, caiyun, xianming and kin at foodcourt near there.
i rot my times, and so listen to the recording and video i had yesterday.

after that, met up with the rest and went to the places for the animation.
we got lost, and layyen fall down :(
aw.
muds was everywhere after the big rain.
finally, we reached and bought tickets.
9 bucks per person and i hoped is a good show.
boyfriend called and he so sweet :D

anyway the animate ah-______-
it give a very eerie feeling lor, and i dont really like.
but we laugh at most of the part!
LOLL. because damn cute la, especially the tree.
chirstmas TREE
walau la.
the last part damn pervate please-.-
and the gross part of cutting down his ear-.-
managed to catch what the movie going on, but well.
nice is nice ah, but i dont want to watch it anymore-.-

i think quite a waste of money lor, althought the animate was good.
but well.
kl and mh was like duh, what's there to laugh.

anyway, after the movie went to subway, had cookies.
some went home after that, and we went starbuck to chili.
went home at 10.30pm and hungry like siao.

anyway, on phone with boyfriend and i asked mei to talk boyfriend.
you know, they talk until QURRAL SIA!
darling got dulan and said, "I DONT WANT TALK TO YOU LA, ASK DEAR TO LISTEN TO PHONE"
huang yiting cried like shit later on.
boyfriend quickly send superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr long msg to her.
and he kept apologised to her, at least she smile abit la.
dont cried la, i love you (:
cheer up okay, just remember what we do is really for your own good.
he dont mean to shout at you, because he see you as a friend.
but well.

boyfriend talk alot thing to me :)
i super touched.
iloveyou (:

okay, now i got to pray for alot of people.
i pray nothing happen to andrew, i pray hard and hope he wont had any court case pleasee. please please just a warning. please give him a good news.

i pray that nadiah can find back her thumbdrive, there's something important inside. if it was me, i sure sad like siao. so pray hard tmr in school she will saw her thumbdrive right there.

i pray and seriously hoped huang yiting, my dear sister can really smile and cheer up. my dear, it been long since i saw you happy. i hate to see you emo, i hate to see you hurt yourself, i hate to see you cried. please smile, i just love to see you smile. i dont want myself to smile and happy only, i want you too. i hope you will find your happiness, who can really make you smile from the bottom of your heart. cheer up my sister, there really alot people loving you. i dont know how to say ba, but remember just moved on when you found out thing are not right. i love you my dear.

i pray hard mummy will stay healthy and round, i really hate to see her coughing everynight, i will cry de :( mummy, please recover soon, i pray. i love you mummy. you might think i dont care dont care, but actually i been worried since your blood pressure is high, please go see doctor and take medicine. i hope you will got well soon. please.

boyfriend, i love you. i hope one day when you really trust me, you will open your heart and love me wholehearty. i know you need time, just take your times. let me prove, i wont leave you no matter what had happen.

got to sleep soon.
it 5am now.
there school tmr at 6pm:/

i changed my blogskin and blog link.
so please relink!
love!


Monday, October 27, 2008

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outdated photos :]


sis & me
bro & me


ming han's index fringer and my last finger! HAHA!



daddy's car :D



momo! HAHA


bendemeer sec
the scar on my stomach after i iron till my stomach -.-
super cute white dog that i will see it everyday on the way to bus stop.
moses's talking (:
psp psp psp psp






outdated photos yea (: