good bad day

yes, meet my boyfriend today (:

so as usual wake up at 7.30am and managed to get done by 8.30am.
oh ya, bf want me to wear tshirt and i was thinking that i going to town later on-.-
but nevermind, as long as he is happy.
so well, i waited 131 and then 66 for 45 mins and finally i on the way to batok.
waited for the bus for damn long please.

reached boyfriend's house at 10am i guess.
i lost my way lor, omg.
the block all look the same and so complicated.
i walked until blk168 and realised i was in the wrong way -.-

went up and watched tv (:
we always watched the movie in chnl 61/62, and everytime we missed the ending for dont know what reason eh-.-


boyfriend's bill was $233
omg :(

11pm+, we went to eat with bf's mum and niece.
his niece very cute luh :D and bf's mum treat me very nice.
haa.
have chicken rice as usual and his friend. eddy joined us later on.
thanks for the meal (:

bid goodbye with his mum and we slack under 162.
told dar that i going down to town after meeting him, and he was like, "eh you want wear like this down to town ah?"
even huang yiting msg me and asked me whether i got bring extra top to change or not.
okay, i dont really mind wearing tee down to town although look kind of weird, but sometime tee look quite alright eh (:
i guess maybe i always wear those oversize tee so kind of weird.

then boyfriend want to me go home at that timing, 12nn+, because he want to accompany his friends and i can change my top before going down to town too.
omg, is like so early can and i just meet him for 2hr+ sia.
if i go home i dont even want to come out anymore lo.

was debating with bf, damn cute of him luh :D
then he got unhappy that i kept shooting back him.
have fun aruging and playing with him, ilu.
:D

eddy was playing bf's ngage
after that, we bused down to west mall.
there is some performance going on by children, we watched awhile after finding his friend, xiao hao at his workplace.

then four of us went to nearby coffee shop to take some drinks, and bf told me the chnl 8 9pm show is act at there, the basketball court there.
they were talking about the aids and damn funny lo!
LOL, especially the part when all the neighbour throw eggs on the family in esp on fri.
boyfriend's reaction was like damn funny!
HAHAHA.

i kept on staring at darling and he got irritated by me!
im so in love with him.
darling maybe gonna sign on after army, i guess that good for him luh.
and he posting to tuas next week le, that mean nearer to his house.
good good!

listen to the guys' chatting till 2pm+ then me and dar left first to find xiao hei.
walked to his house, and waited for xiao hei.
boyfriend got angry because basketball had been cancelled and he look so forward to it for able to played long hours at last.
and he jitao no mood lo.
smileeeeeeeeee darling.

slack beside basketball court for awhile, and then went up to andrew's house for majong.
boyfriend dont want take photo with me, lol he no mood sia.

3pm+, darling, andy, xiao hei and mickey started to play mahjong.
i promised darling not to get bored by him if i want to tag along.
actually i leaving at 4pm de, inthend yiting is still doing her work at tampines so well.

very funny ah, seeing boyfriend playing mahjong.
they played super fast, and i started to get sleepy.
so well, spent the rest of the time watching them playing mahjong.
andy's daddy was singing K at living room and i thought they were playing CD at first :x
get what i mean?

continued the mj until 6pm+ and they end it.
bf lose $2.

went down with bf, xiaohei, mickey and andrew.
all of us walk seperate way, and bf decided to play basketball.
then he actually dont want send me to bus stop as he left 3 hours to play BB.
i gave him stupid face, and he so pekcek, i guess.
anyway, i think he no mood eh.
:/

he accompany me to wait for 174, goodbye kiss and hug and i left.

alighted at tangs and out of sudden, i totally forgot how to go far east.
i dont really recognise the building well at dark night.
call mei for help and walk wrong way instead, but still i managed to find my way there.

meet them at subway, have oven roasted chicken breast like again :)

OMFGZXZZXZ.
i did stun again, i topple the drink like third time.

im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling im sorry yiling.

i damn fucking guilty :(
because all the lemon tea pour over her short.
i stunned lor, i damn guilty.
i spolit all the mood man, and i can see she was angry about it.
idk what to do man.
im sorry man, and i almost cry on the spot.

because of the phobia..
everytime this incident happened really cant stop me from thinking what happened between my ex and his family.
that incident, i really dont wish to remember it :(
i so scared can, because of that incident left a phobia in my heart.
morever the incident with my ex is much more serious than the water being topple over.
:(
i dont want to mention it man..

the more i scared for being careless, the most i tend to be careless.
and each time the phobia in my heart became more and more.
i keep trying to be careful when having drink around me, but i just dont know why, i tend to topple over them, as if the drink appear to be invisible.
luckily until now, this incident havent happened when i with my boyfriend. or else i guess i will just cry on the spot, and morever he dont like me to be careless.

idk how to say, it the phobia, everytime i do this type of stun i would suddenly became damn scared can.
i just hoped that im the one who kanna it, i dont want other people became the victims of my careless :(

then now i think of what yiting said to me, i felt like crying can.
"say sorry no cure."
"wah lau, you very jialat you know?"
"it the third time you know? walao."
"go buy a new short for her la."
"fuck you la! chee bye. fuck fuck fuck la."
"everything just screw up, fuck la.." and she continued to scold.
then she just walked away, leaving me behind..

i almost cried can while im on the way home.
is she the one who said to me or in her blog that people shouldnt get too over of a mistake or whatever.
is she the one who said that, people already so guilty about it, and shouldnt adding on to it le.
then why is she saying this type of thing to me?
i know im not first time doing this type of thing, but im really not on purpose.
i dont mean to spolit the mood, i know yiling had the right to get angry about it.
but i just think yiting shouldnt said this type of stuff, it like so hurting and making me more guilty.
yes, she can say me because im in fault, but what with the attitude?
sound like im purposly topple over the drink and screw up everything.

im sorry i so careless in everything i do, i really got no idea why.
maybe from the start when i born, you know i always got injury all over me since i was a baby.
like seriously, i always fall and injuryed myself every single times when i was out in my young age.

im fall fall fall, injuryed injuryed injuryed till i dont know what is the feeling of the pain le.
my parents scold scold scold until they gave up scolding le.

of course things get better now, but still i always knock or almost got tripped myself in whatever i do.
walao, i really dont know why im so careless maybe because i dont have eyes on hands and legs.
i just hoped that i will get rid of this bad habit..

i now even more scared to have meal with friends le.
it not the first time can, i got more and more scared each time..
i really dont know what to do man, if i gonna topple the drink again i think i really will cry sia.
you know the phobia :(
so people just curse me that if im gonna topple my drink or whatever, it will be all over me not others.

and idk why i go town today?




im sorry yiling, seriously sorry.