broke down crying at working..

hai.
ytdy during working time, i actually broke down crying during the work:(

i was like trying to bear for more than six hours.

i dono luhs... ytdy during work suddenly miss him damn much....
stupid me lar.
the work alrdy make me so busy..
but i still thinking him in other mind..
i don want to cry de..
but hai...
inthend, i still drop tears.

ran to the kitchen to cry.
still feel very hurt....
anyway, i wanted to thanks all the pple.
they so caring luhhhs.
and the chief treat me the sweets and fruit.!
aw. thanks. they are so sweets.

hai, i promised myself not to drop tears anymore..
but....
but after crying, i feel more better lahs..
if i contined to push down to my heart. i think i get depression soon liao..

my heart just feel very hurt and pain lahs.
i really cannot take it..
sign.
i down here feeling so hurt..
yet he up there so happy.. (seeing his msn nick)

hai.
but i rather i the one to be hurt, also don want to hurt him..
but i just think very unfair.
why is always the girl to be get hurt..
yet the boy can seem like none of his business..
but hai, i really dont have the right to say anything.
i don meant to rant on it de..

alrdy cried for abt 1 months de bahs.
yet i havent recover.
the hurt is just too deep to recover easily..

what should i do..
my heart really very pain..
i hurt, really hurt.....
till now, i still cant accept the reason he give me " i no time for you"

i really feel like crying again...
i don want to think so much, yet every seconds, he kept appearing in my mind.
argh.

i really crave for the day that my feeling will fade away.
so that i wont feel so pain.
but yet, my love for him seen deeper (even though, i never see him for 1mths3weeks ler)
what should i do? so that i can fade away my feeling for him..
who can just help me up..
i really feel very tong ku..
nothing can describe the pain...

i want to let go, i trying my best...
but its not as easy as what you think.
i really don have any idea how you let go so easy..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
i think i going mad soon ler..
i want to cry, at least i feel better..
but i tired of crying le..
each time, i think of him, my nose just feel sour, my heart broken again into pieces.

i really doubt time will heal the hurt.
prehaps it can, just it will take longer time..
i hope he can get out of my mind asap.
but its really toooooooo difficult.
my heart really very pain...

i hate myself for not able to let go.
i hate myself putting in so much love in the first place..
its too much for me to take it ler..
can i just go knock my head and lose all the memory?..
i'm tired........

you wont know how much pain you have give me..
you dont know, and you forever wont know it....
you wont know how pain is the hurt
YOU JUST DONT KNOW..

well.
hai.
whatever.

after working three days.
i fall sick!
is like omg?..==
1st day, work half day.
2nd day, work full day.
3rd day, work full day.

and i fall ill at 3rd day.
somemore ahjon put me work today for full time.
=___=
during 3rd day, kao ehs.
my throat suddenly very pain lar..
then i almost faint luhs TT.
somemore cry that day, make me worst=__=

and ya hor. yiting and ron go eat sakura that day =____=
and mei almost vomit !
l0ls.

soso, that day, went home and i fever==.
i was like first time get fever in this two years.
LOLS.
so eat medicine..

then actually plan to go work at 5pm next day..

so today, i wake up..
i feeling okay lar.. except the throat still freaking pain.
so think of going to work in 12nn.
because, daddy will fetch us go! xD

butbut, is like when you sick, your skin will like became ehh...
is like.. uhh .... i dono how to said lar..
l0l.
anyway, i went to work.
anddddddd i almost freeze lar.
they alrdy off the aircon.
but damn cold lar..
i was like shivering every sec.
luckily today no customers.
and i was staying at the ice-cream for 3hrs.
LOLS.
cos below there got hot air come out.
i don dare move luhs.
arbo i more cold lar...
was standing at there..

so i was like buay tan han lar!!!!!!!!!!
so call ahjon to let me go home:)
then call my dad and fetch me home
sorry hor, mei mei left you there =X

if i now never go home.
now is 9.30pm, the last order !
haaaas ~

aiya.
the waitress very tiring lar.
cos i just start work.
haven get use to it=____=
now i very scared to stand up alrdy liao.
got chance to sit down, must sit until i shuang !
l0ls.
is like need to stand for about 12hrs lor !!!!!!
faint lar!~
then need to smile for like 12 hrs!
HAAAAS
smile:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

tmr maybe will go work bahs.
and yeah ^^,
ahjon teach me how to settle the bill lar :D
muaheeheees.
but i quite forget liao.
l0LS.

anyway, i never eat anything since this morning.
L0LS.
my throat damn pain TT.
dot la.
out of sudden i fall sick.=___=

now i feel like fainting=.=


can i forget you.....?