well.....

since you alrdy said all the truth out.
i will also said whatever hiding in my heart le..

well, believe that actually i thinking of breaking up with u during that time.
you said you cant stand my character.
well. i cant stand your character more than you.
thing that you do, i really canot take it, not happy abt it.
and what i think at tat moment?
"can i fucking break up with him?"
but at that time, i still love you, so i have to bear and bear it.

that why, sometimes i cry in sudden without reason.
cos i cant stand you, but i don wish to say anything out.

i hate the thing you do to me everyday.
tell me, what is your actual main purpose of meeting me?.
so somedays, i never meet you, deep in my heart i happy abt it.
cos i dont need to face the thing you do to me liao.

you said you cant stand my character or what.
please think yourself too.
and please, you not mature okie.
i know i not mature too, but you also.
things that you said seem so childish can.
if you mature enough, will you be saying "i dont know anything, and i dont wish to know"
wtf you call yourself mature?
by saying you dont wish to know what had happen.
you been escaping of what had happening.
you still can told me that you are busy of your guitar and stress abt it.
crap can.
waste my energy to help you said that you really busy in it.
making use of it and bluff me.

if you are mature enough.
you will think and act properly what is wrong and right.
even you want break with me, you shld choose the right way to do it.
not the way of lieing me.
and you shld face to face say to me, not with msg or what can.
and after hurting me, you fuck care it, and happily start with your new relationship.
wow, you calling yourself mature izzit?.
you dont even reflect what you have done?
and you forever wont admit what you have done wrong, and think that you are right.
well, you will alway stay on the same spot without moving on.
cos you will never change.

the way you talk is not mature alrdy.
there is one time, talking with you on the phone really make me vomit blood can.!
all the thing you said is wrong, and you dont even want to listen to me.
well, after i hang the phone.
i straight away, walk out of the room and pour everything to my mum.
cos she adult she know what is right and wrong, somemore the topic we said is related to my mum, of cos she will know what is the real suitation.
i rant and rant on my mum, and she told me what is right.
guess what, all the thing you said is just wrong.
i told you next day, and you fucking dont want to believe.
and insisted that you are right.
faint can anot.
well, hack care you.
you want think you are right, continue with it.

still got one time, cassandra's blog .
then she got write just one sentence abt you.
is like only one sentence , you want me to msg her and ask her said sorry to you.
you know how reluctant i am mahs.
i never angry, what the for you angry=.=

well, you said i alway control you.
then what abt you, you control me more than me.
and i never really control you or what.
is alway what you want to go out or what, you alway said "i'll ask my gf first"
wtf can, i never even ask you to ask me first when you want to do anything.
i even ask you that time, why you alway want to ask me de.
as if i wont that you go or what?.
inthend you still got go right?

then you le?
dont let me go here or there.
must got you around then i can go.
you dont even let me msg with boy.
if you saw me msg with boy, you will definetly msg back them and scold them.
you even scolded my two years of friend.
is like wtf can.
i never even do that when you msg with girl.
but still, i also never get angry with these.
so what, is you control me or i control you?.

still got one occasion.
you msg girl and said "hai.. no one love me de."
wtf is that.
then me le, your dad and mum le?
can you think properly when you said these?
you know how angry and hurt when i saw these.
can you fucking go die please.
what you mean when you said these?
mean that you wish that girl to love you.

and the most angry is that, you alway think that you are the most pity.
please, you are the boy le.
when you sick, you alway said "hai, i sick le, i going to die soon le. haii...."
so fuck can, get so pek cek with it, when i saw these.
can you fucking stop saying die, die and die?.
even i so sick, i never said that type of word.
even yiting saw that, she despie you!.

still got one time, i preparing for Olvl.
well, the chemistry really very difficult and stress to study
i just wanted to msg you and said that i get really stress with my chem homework.
i just hope to get some care and concern from you.
then wtf you replied me?
you said that you should be the one most stress, saying yourself got work and study and singing and what what what.
then what you mean, mean i don have the right to say i stress too?
inthend, i was the one cheering you up instead.
then what abt me, i swear i don want to say that i stress of anything to you le!
and so what, i piang chem like mad like that, took the longest time to revise, i don even want to tell you how stress i am when i revising it.
but luckily, chem turn out to be a easy one:)

i look down on you. everything you want to be the one who look the most pityful.
the first sms you send me saying that no one love you, everyone is making fun of you.
i was like really mah?
until when i saw you and your friends together.
i suspect the word you said.
well, nevermind.

and what, you everytime hit me, but i just play play only luhs.
but u still can hit me until i blue patch and bleed.
i never even hit you until these state.
still got one time.
you hit me with super big bluepatch.
cassandra was like OMFG when she saw it.
then my parents will like asking me how i get it.
and i still need to bluff them that i accidently knock it.
altot they dont believe it.
you hit me until like that, i never once complain to you.
then you le.
you still can rant and rant.
i attitude you. you want hit me ease your anger.
well, i let you to be as long as you are happy.
but please le, everyone girl sure got some attitude de.
cant we just sit down and have talk with it, but not you hitting me.

you told me that, if we break up.
you die die also don want to find another girlfriend.
ssaid what, super troublesome, still need to waste money, effort and manything.
please go and die!.
mean that, you also think it is super troublesome when you chasing me.
you are the boy le, can you dont rant on it, especially thing that you do on the girl.
after, i get to know relationship happen on my guy collegues.
you are just a very small case.
then what happen now, you have a new gf exactly after one mth.
mean that you talking crap and crap.
guy really cant believe.

cassandra and tinghui are super right.
guy tend to fade their feeling very fast.

you said i shld change or what during that time.
you know why don wish to change?.
that my character can.
you chase me beccause of my character, break with me also because of my character.
please fucking go die.
that me, you cant accept it, then break lo.
i dont need to change because of you.
and also one of the reason i don wish to change liao.
is i know you breaking up with me le.
you dont like me sticking with you.
but the last few day bef0re going to china, i die die also want stick to you.
cos i know we left only that few day, anyway, i come back from china, you also not with me.
so nevermind, i just use that few day to stick with you.
unless, i come back from china you still with me then i'll change not to stick with you.
you said to yiting, that i shld change long ago.
but you are wrong, cos i know that you leaving me, so i dont want to change.
you know, last second i saw your face, i said to myself.
that might be the last time i seeing you.
altot you said you wont leave me or what.
but the eye expression you give me, make me not confident with you.
i know that you are lieing.
but i still want to believe in you.

then after i come back from china.
something told me that you will have another girlfriend in anytime.
maybe it seem quite impossible.
but i just feel that.
so when i knew it.
i was like oh.
i cant feel anything anymore.
i still happily chatting with pple on msn, like nth happen.
cos you not my bf de what.
you want stead with who also none of my business anymore.
just that, i feel that you are no different with other boy.
still got the face to said ben.
please reflect on yourself please!.
everything is just under my expectation...

and please, dont think that is becuase of you breaking with me.
i became independent loe.
when i dont have stead one yr ago, i also depend myself.
just that i start relationship with you.
i depend on you only.
when boy stead with girl.
of cos girl will depend on boy can.
arbo what is boy for?
so please, don think that i dont know how to depend on myself.
you still look down on me with my character, i wont get to find job easily.
wtf can.
i still can go find job myself in just one day time.
LOLS.

luckily that you break with me liao.
cos you once said, you dont allow guy to play with me when i working or what.
so well, LUCKILY RIGHT, yiting?!

and thanks to you le i single liao!!!
so happy can.
single means,
dont need to cry because of getting hurt in relationship.
not need to be greedy of money just want to go dating with bf.
dont need to waste money.
don need to quarral with parent because of bf.
dont need to get scolded from parent beacuse of bf.
can msg with who jiu who.
can play with who jiu who.
can go anywhere i like.
no one will control me.
single everyone will be doting me :XXXXXXX
don need to have the feeling of being jealous.
dont need to bluff parent cos of bf.
dont need to push everytime down my heart whenever i not happy with bf
can accompany my mother more and more le XDDDD

but whatever, having relationship still got good point.
just that it is short terms =X
i young mahhs. i can enjoy my single life now XD
i happy that i not need last with you until i 18yr old liao. :)

but whatever is it.
i will learn from my mistake and being better for my next relationship.
i know what shld i do to change me into much more better girlfriend.
i know when shld i play and when i shld i get serious with it.

love to play don mean it childish right people ????????????
i don know why you said me childish just that i tend to play alot.
i enjoying my life right?
you dont like then fine.
you can go and find a girl who dont like to play.
and also you can find a girl who are super quiet and not talketive at all!

and i hope you change change your that character can.
when you are wrong, please admit it, instead of insist that you are alway right.

and yaaaaaaa.
you might not know but someone around you might be backstabbing you anytime.
well! goodluck.
(i tio very stunned too) =X
and dont so easy believe pple anytime.
big EXAMPLE, cassandra's blog de case=XXXXXXXXX
thing dont get so simple sometimes.
you might not know what happen next time.
whatever is it.
i hope you don hurt another girl again le..

i regret for accepting you in the first place.
i rather you never appear in my life and memories before.
but whatever is it, i wont hate you or what.
i still treat you as friend.
but is up to you still treat me as friend anot..

BYE XD