hai

b0red.
was browsing through my friendster blog just now.
i really miss the time lar.
there is really lots and lots of memoriies with him.
and so sweeeeets:(
i bet you must have forgetting most of it liao...

find out that from the starting of the time to now.
i really change alot alot.
especially my attitude..
l0ls.
attitude actually getting better and better each time.
laughs**
and getting independent each time.
from the time he send me home everyday, until the time i send him to work more than the time he send me home.
from the time we chat hours every night, until the time we onphone for just 10mins every night.
from the time he come my house to find me every weekends, until the time i went to find him more than he come and find me every weekends.
from the time that i always violent to him, until the time i start gentle to him more and more.
the time we arguing is getting lesser until NO MORE.
the time i wait for him is getting more and more.
and the time i treasure him getting more and more.
it really very good of all this.
i start to be patient, understanding and independent days by days.
and that six week of seperation change me more, if we still together.
because i know i will not stop being stubborn to meet him, stop giving attitude anymore, stop all the wildfulness and playful.

but that all past lers.
i saw dao one of the post from last time.
i wrote that " maybe in our hearts, we know that we wont last if he really choose to be singer:X that his dream:) he should persuade his dream. but, nevermind, as long as we had once treasure each other:) as long as we once belong to each other:) we just work hard for our relationship, last as long as we can."

at that point of time while i writing this.
i didnt know that it really happen so fast.
(wrote that words during the august time.)
l0ls.
but we didnt tried our best to last long.
haii.

i don want to rant on it le, as i had promised him not to said anymore ler and me to stop thinking about it.
but i really very down on it.
**who ask me go see the blog from last time**
serves me rights~
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

can someones just hit my head and let me lose all the memory.
l0ls~~

hai.
what should i do...
had a chat with mei two days ago.
i suddenly just blanked.
i start to feel that, maybe this not the time to stead.
i even think that maybe it good that haoen break with me.
finding that after i have find my work.
life really get damn freaking busy each day.
is like totally no time for each other.
but i think, if we are still together, no matter how busy we are, we still able to find time for each other de what.
just that..... you think it impossible.

ahh . whatever!~
no use for me to said de lahhhhs.!
i want cry, but no tears come out.
i promised myself not to drop any tears anymore..
i promised myself to treat him as a friend..
i really did it..
but treating him as friend.. i don have the right to get angry or what on whatever he had done.
because i not his girlfriend anymore ler.
i just laugh, laugh and take it as a joke.
i trying very hard and i glad that i able to accept it whatever we had chat during the second time on msn, and i didnt drop any tears that night although somethings he had said sadden me.
congrats me anyway.
i trying to be open and stay strong about it :]
what is me will be mine, but things that is not belong to me, no matter how hard i do, it also will be gone in the end.
so i guess i should just let go, and wait.

shall stop ranting about it. $!#!@#
well.
nokia 5610 is giving me lots of problem lar!!!!
fed up lar.
argh.
is like when pple me items.
then it will go into received files.
so i need to move the items into memory cards.
arbo the phone memory don have space liao.
last time, there is no problem.
but now ler.
when i want move to memory card.
it will pop up and said "operation failed".
wth is that lar.
so pek cek $@!#@

so now i tried to use USB to send song to the hp.
inthend, same problem.
said "the operation could not be complete."

arghhhh.
i want those song lar
TT
fuckkkkkk~
siann lahs.
who using nokia 5610 can help me mahhs. TT.
what is the meaning of operation failed TT.

arghhhhhh.!
rwar!

whatever, had to go sleep liao.
tmr working at 12nn.
i looking forward to it :D
NIGHT!


i really miss you alot, but i cant.............