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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE.

okay i very lazy, wanted to update ytdy renioun dinner and today esplanade trip.
but soon okayxzxzzzz.
i damn tired now :((

i very mood swing now,
i can be damn high and laugh like no one business, but the next moment i gave attitude and shout around.

i very depressed now :(
just now in the car i laugh like mad, but actually inside my heart i crying out loud.
i just cant stop thinking about him.
and suddenly i cant accept that he actually left me already.

i dont know how to accept
i dont know how to accept
i dont know how to accept



today tv was playing some old songs.
i thought of him again.

:(



i think mother know that we break up.

but still mother keep on asking me to break up .

i feel like shouting to her
"WE ALREADY BERAK UP LE LA, YOU HAPPY OR NOT"



i really really very sad.


mummy asked me to make a wish at wishing well.
i gave up, and gave the coin to mother.
i dont think it will come true.



i dreaming of him everytime i slept ever since we break up.
be it taking a noon nap, or sleeping at night, or close my eyes for a few minutes to sleep.
i will be dreaming about him.

i dream the situation of we breaking up.
it's so heartpain.
i hate this i hate this i hate this.



I REALLY CANT ACCEPT.
im a loser.


i really want to forget him.

i wish i wish i wish
i wish i will forget him.



the saddest sentence in the msg was "your mother hate me so much"
this sentence make me cry so much.



*edited*
went back the old post to see all the memories we went through.
damn hurt now, i cant believed everything is over already :(

i very stupid.