hanging in the air.

cried like shit yesterday night..
i felt i got no tears anymore but yet inside my heart is bleeding profusely.

i hate this feeling, i hate the feeling of hanging in the air and the string seem to be like snapping at any moment.
im scare, i scare i might drop at any moment. i hate this feeling.
it's so hurt. i really hate it.. so insecure and lost.

why i love a person so much, yet i have to be treated in this way..
why no matter what i've done, it still happen again and again.
im seriously tired, im so tired to see the same things over and over..
my heart ache everytime i saw this.
it expected, but my heart still so pain.

it's because i love you, i really love you..





and what's more.
i got tons of painting pilling up for me to be done.
damn shit la. F F F F F F F.
and i left with two days.

i seriously lack of sleep can :(

kill myself please.


feel like crying right now, but i got no time to cry anymore.

bye.